'LISTLESS' by Neal Darken Trellis

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'LISTLESS' by NEAL DARKEN TRELLIS

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‘LISTLESS’ by Neal Darken Trellis

And as my father’s casket disappears through the curtain a songbird bursts with joy in my heart. I fight the urge to rush backstage or wherever to set fire to him myself and force my gaze onto the faces of my family, my brother, my sisters, their tears sheens of lube as I use the App on my phone to order a pizza and my Mom wheelchairs over - her mouth a puckered asshole - to tell me to take my headphones off -

WHAT? I exclaim loudly, forcing her to mime her instructions as everyone looks sad.

Sad.

Sad.

Sad.

The guy I want to have sex with texts from the bar to say he’s there now with the girl I met last summer. ‘She wants to fuck you’ he says.

‘I want to fuck you’ I text back.

‘I want to fuck her and you’ he replies and I make a deal right there at the crematorium to fuck each other in every hole, every possible way. Is it weird that I don’t know either of their names?

I watch my Mom wheeled out into the sunlight.

She’ll be in a box too soon.

We all will.

And the statements now forming in my head lead us to the close –

I wanted my father to disappear for good so many times and now he has a universal truth circles as the mushrooms kick in -

Some people are just pricks but all men are worthy of love, even the fuck ups but only when they’re gone forever is it safe to offer that love.

In the car someone asks what our father would say if he were here right now.

‘Do I look good in this coffin?’ I throw out and my Mom flashes me a look of disapproval which bores me.

I put my headphones back on as the car turns back onto the freeway and I’m listening to Technocock. Get A New Tapestry Dennis and every word I ever wrote was deeply felt but no one noticed. So, let me ask you a question. Why would anyone write this if they didn’t care?

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